“I can’t do anything. I’m not worth anything. I’m no use to anyone….” The tape played over and over in my head. The longer I allowed these thoughts to circle around in my head, working their way insidiously into my subconscious, the more debilitated I became. I was allowing myself to become a victim of my circumstances.
I thought I was weak; therefore I was. I thought I couldn’t do anything useful, so I didn’t. I felt I couldn’t control anything, so I became anxious about everything. I was living every day in a state of near-panic. This had to stop!
One morning as I was feeling particularly anxious about something I had to do that day, I decided to try a little experiment. I stood up straight, put my hands on my hips, looked straight into the mirror, and said, “I am strong. I am brave. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” I repeated it throughout the day. Whenever I’d feel those little fingers of dread climbing up my spine, I’d mentally whip out my mantra and repeat it until I started to calm down.
The Bible warns us about “taking every thought captive” and through dealing with both fibromyalgia and menopause (evidently both can cause you to have feelings of anxiety), I have certainly learned the value of doing just that.
I’ve also learned that you can’t just push the negative thoughts out of your mind – you have to replace them with something positive. That’s why daily affirmations are so valuable. They allow me to feel optimistic about not just today, but the future.
Am I cured of my anxious feelings? Not even close, but I am at least one step closer than I was yesterday…..